This period's post may or may not be just as emotional as the last, but yesterday's weigh-in took me to a place that I don't care to be. By no one's fault but my own, I happened to gain since my last post, but lose since my last OFFICIAL post. I was so excited about losing what I had two weeks ago that I could only see my self moving forward to becoming a better me. A week later, I attended a conference, and after contemplating about whether or not to bring my own lunch to the conference, I decided to just chose the healthier options from their selections. What I didn't know was that they were doing boxed lunches and everything, and I mean EVERYTHING, was carb-filled. They offered a variety of pastry and fruit options for breakfast (as well as coffee, tea, water, juices and sodas). For lunch there were three options for boxed lunches- all sandwiches and wraps. In addition, inside each Day One box there was risotto salad, chips, and a brownie, and Day Two there was potato salad, chips, and a cookie. On day two, only after the fact that I had already eaten my turkey sandwich, did I realize there were these wonderful looking salads on the table. Day one I ate everything in my chicken salad box besides a little of the risotto, which I should have skipped. Day two I at everything besides the cookie, but they bread was so thick, I decided to take off the top slice. There was enough bread there to make two good sized sandwiches. I stopped when I felt satisfied, so technically I didn't eat all of my food, but I about ate 3/4 of it. So, I practiced a bit of using better eating habits in unusual situations, but I didn't want to be the girl who brought her own lunch to conference. The following weekend we took a trip home, so to prepare to at least have healthy option for lunch/dinner, I packed up food from our meal prep to carry with us. While I was packing it up, I turned to my husband and said, "I bet we wont even open the bag while we're home." Guess what? We didn't. We either didn't eat a meal, we ate what our parents cooked, or we ate out. Granted we were only home for a day and a half, but we had the option to do better and we took the option that tasted better. I can say that I have began to think more actively about the process of becoming healthier which is why I believe that I'm still in the positive for weight loss. We realize that we are the most supportive enablers we know. If one of us doesn't feel like working out, and the other senses it (because neither of us really want to) we implement our rule (that we do/don't do/eat something if we both agree to/not too. I'm going to have to find Nike to partner with me because at least I know that he'll tell me "Just Do It." (I know that was a lame joke.)
Aside from all that we have been better at being active which maybe why my husband still loss 3lbs. from our last official weigh-in. Which brings me to my low for the week. If you read my last post, you know that I was down 6 lbs., he was down 4 lbs., I put 4 lbs. back on, he dropped 3 more. I was like, "what the world is going on here?" It was like my body stole his 4 lbs. We ate the same foods, did the same work outs, slept the same hours, I mean everything we did was pretty much identical. The only thing is my job is much more sedentary than his, so he gets more active points (I guess). I always tell him, I'm bigger than you (yes, I weigh A LOT more than my husband), and you still lose 3 lbs. to my every one loss. This is how it has always been and I attribute it to PCOS and my not so great habits. We had this conversation yesterday about how "regular-sized people" seem to have this crazy idea that fat people are generally lazy people who sit around, eat, and watch TV all day. Have you seen the video by Nicole Arbour called "Dear Fat People?" Though she excludes people who have health issues that contribute to weight gain, she is the epitome of the general population's ignorance about obesity in this country. Your body and it's biology is determined by so much more than what you eat and what you do. Some people are naturally bigger than others (no I'm not talking about being "big-boned"). Though some bones may be bigger (or should I say thicker) bones than others just like some people have longer bones, but that has nothing to do with one being overweight. They determine your body shape and frame size. I mean naturally bigger because of genetics or some other reason. What people fail to realize is that genetics play a pretty big role in what your body becomes. Most fat people know they're fat, so we don't need anyone reminding us of it. Some people love themselves they way they are, so love themselves but want to change their physical appearance, some hate the way they look, but love themselves and...well you get the point. We may or may not be comfortable in our own skin, but who are "you" to make us feel less. Just think about it. Do you think if five people weighing the same amount whose daily activities and food consumption are identical for a month would lose the same amount of weight and inches, and build the same amount of muscle? Uh, probably not. I could say so much more, but that's my rant.
All I am saying is LOVE YOU. Bump what others think, say, or feel about you. As long as you love yourself, that's all that matters. If there is something that you don't like about yourself then you'll take the necessary steps to change when you are ready. You know, my relationship with myself has been one that I don't have to explain to anyone; my struggle has been a personal one (well, until now), and if I never lose another pound, I love the person I am. Beauty is in the eye of the beholder, so why care about what society thinks is ACCEPTABLE. I don't have time to compare myself to others; I just have time to work on the things I don't absolutely love about myself which doesn't necessarily mean those things have to be physical. Anywho...I digress!
Phew!
So this week we are going to play the numbers game which I have found I don't really always like. We have a love/hate relationship. I'm down 2 lbs. For a total of 4.6 lbs. So, I still have 45.4 lbs to go. I am still very optimistic for next month. We have challenged ourselves to lose 10 lbs each before our friends', William's and Chauntay's, wedding in 6 weeks. So, we will see how this goes. We have also added trips to Mount Trashmore in Virginia Beach to our weekly routine. There are three different trails to walk/run (Mountain, Lake, and Perimeter) as well as a few different high- and low- intensity workout stations for us to use. I am also looking for a walking buddy for when my husband is unavailable. So ladies, if you live in the Tidewater Area, and you'd like to walk with me, please leave me a message. Sorry for writing a novel.
Until next time,
Love Yourself!
Aside from all that we have been better at being active which maybe why my husband still loss 3lbs. from our last official weigh-in. Which brings me to my low for the week. If you read my last post, you know that I was down 6 lbs., he was down 4 lbs., I put 4 lbs. back on, he dropped 3 more. I was like, "what the world is going on here?" It was like my body stole his 4 lbs. We ate the same foods, did the same work outs, slept the same hours, I mean everything we did was pretty much identical. The only thing is my job is much more sedentary than his, so he gets more active points (I guess). I always tell him, I'm bigger than you (yes, I weigh A LOT more than my husband), and you still lose 3 lbs. to my every one loss. This is how it has always been and I attribute it to PCOS and my not so great habits. We had this conversation yesterday about how "regular-sized people" seem to have this crazy idea that fat people are generally lazy people who sit around, eat, and watch TV all day. Have you seen the video by Nicole Arbour called "Dear Fat People?" Though she excludes people who have health issues that contribute to weight gain, she is the epitome of the general population's ignorance about obesity in this country. Your body and it's biology is determined by so much more than what you eat and what you do. Some people are naturally bigger than others (no I'm not talking about being "big-boned"). Though some bones may be bigger (or should I say thicker) bones than others just like some people have longer bones, but that has nothing to do with one being overweight. They determine your body shape and frame size. I mean naturally bigger because of genetics or some other reason. What people fail to realize is that genetics play a pretty big role in what your body becomes. Most fat people know they're fat, so we don't need anyone reminding us of it. Some people love themselves they way they are, so love themselves but want to change their physical appearance, some hate the way they look, but love themselves and...well you get the point. We may or may not be comfortable in our own skin, but who are "you" to make us feel less. Just think about it. Do you think if five people weighing the same amount whose daily activities and food consumption are identical for a month would lose the same amount of weight and inches, and build the same amount of muscle? Uh, probably not. I could say so much more, but that's my rant.
All I am saying is LOVE YOU. Bump what others think, say, or feel about you. As long as you love yourself, that's all that matters. If there is something that you don't like about yourself then you'll take the necessary steps to change when you are ready. You know, my relationship with myself has been one that I don't have to explain to anyone; my struggle has been a personal one (well, until now), and if I never lose another pound, I love the person I am. Beauty is in the eye of the beholder, so why care about what society thinks is ACCEPTABLE. I don't have time to compare myself to others; I just have time to work on the things I don't absolutely love about myself which doesn't necessarily mean those things have to be physical. Anywho...I digress!
Phew!
So this week we are going to play the numbers game which I have found I don't really always like. We have a love/hate relationship. I'm down 2 lbs. For a total of 4.6 lbs. So, I still have 45.4 lbs to go. I am still very optimistic for next month. We have challenged ourselves to lose 10 lbs each before our friends', William's and Chauntay's, wedding in 6 weeks. So, we will see how this goes. We have also added trips to Mount Trashmore in Virginia Beach to our weekly routine. There are three different trails to walk/run (Mountain, Lake, and Perimeter) as well as a few different high- and low- intensity workout stations for us to use. I am also looking for a walking buddy for when my husband is unavailable. So ladies, if you live in the Tidewater Area, and you'd like to walk with me, please leave me a message. Sorry for writing a novel.
Until next time,
Love Yourself!
You go girl! To thine own self be true. Love you!
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